I've been suffocating in it for far too long. I've cared about each and every single one of you from the very beginning with every bit of my heart. i am a good but i don't actually want to anger any of you. how much i wish i could take it all back. and im here asking anyone/everyone willing to help me to do so, TO do so.Īnd to all of those whom i HAVE aggravated. As pathetic as it is, ive always needed help. but its so very incredibly difficult to change myself. i know i don't have the best sense of humor and that ive said far too many things that gave off the wrong impressions on others. I KNOW im a fuck up in many more ways than one. not deter people from not wanting to be around me.
be normal or whatever in the bloody world i need to be to make others happy and just. I've always struggled to do that on my own and i don't want to lose any more people i treasure in this life. if anyone out there willing to listen and read this. i don't blame those who have unadded me for doing so either. i don't blame those that have stopped watching me for doing so. and i don't blame those whom have thought i was dead for doing so. i want to be a better person and make those around me happy rather than push them away. a lot.im not a perfect person and i know there is so much about me that people still hate. They introduced me to others and gave me the time of day nobody else would. as someone they could /would spend time with and some even considered me "Family". that were able to look past my problems and take me in as a friend. I've lost so many since i sunk into depression and i have somehow managed to find people in my life who do actually care. The bow of the instrument is used as a weapon when provoked and does not exist as equipment for the player.I'm truly frightened by the idea of losing others in my life. The instrument used by the merchants seems to be a fictional version of a rebab that is played in a unique position and sounds like a violin.Then, they chanted a curse of despair, and summoned the flame of frenzy.
The description of the Nomadic Merchant's Set reads: These merchants once thrived as the Great Caravan, but after being accused of heretical beliefs, their entire clan was rounded up and buried alive far underground.In addition, several merchants, when fought, use Frenzied Flame incantations.
In the Cathedral of the Forsaken, just above the Frenzied Flame Proscription, a non-hostile NPC plays a similar tune, on a similar instrument.